Part of me is afraid of the unknown. And the other part of me is so excited by it.
By nature, I have always been shy and introverted. I have really tried to avoid things. Failure, success, conflict, etc…But as I get older (I just celebrated my 36th birthday), I’m starting to ask myself why am I afraid? Fear of what and why? Who really cares what people think about anything I do or say or feel or act. I think that’s why they say with age comes wisdom. You realize your fears are only things you’ve created in your own head for no real reason.
Jim Carrey says it best “…Now, fear is going to be a player in your life but you get to decide how much. You can spend your whole life imagining ghosts, worrying about the pathway to the future. All there will ever be is what’s happening here and the decisions we make in this moment which are based in either love or fear. So many of us choose our path out of fear disguised as practicality. What we really want seems impossibly out of reach and ridiculous to expect so we never dare to ask the universe for it. I’m saying I’m the proof that you can ask the universe for it. Please. I learned many great lessons from my father, not the least of which was that you can fail at what you don’t want so you might as well take a chance on doing what you love.”
I think I’ve let my fear be bigger than my love. I’ve settled for things, especially in my working life. There is no time like the present and the decisions I make today will lead to the future I desire and dream of. I’m learning to grow so that I can do what I love and follow my heart. I’m putting it out in the universe. My desire in my heart is to help people be well. It is a goal that I hope to one day bring to life. In the meantime, I’m going to continue to grow in my journey to find joy in the everyday.